January 2011
144 posts
Anonymous asked: whats yo probrem g to the i to the r to the l -izzzzillee?
December 2010
91 posts
i prayed to the universe and it fucking worked...
there is NO WAY im messing this up.
dont vomit in wendy's bags either. they totally...
day 5 no sleep. i keep throwing up and it sucks. can i borrow some ambien?
i wish the aliens in the sky would fucking beam...
FUCK.
coke
i want to drown my troubles in fucking blow. like now. right fucking now.
2010 suicide
on my way to it. it’s drowning my thoughts. fuck. i shouldnt but it’s like making more sense than ever. AHHHGH i just want to scream to relieve all the stress. fuck.
fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck
I have slept a total of 5 hours over the past 4...
I’m trying to breathe, it’s not working at all. i dont want to be labeled as something im not and thats what is happening.
"2011 is the new 2010"
FUCK THAT. 2011 will be better than 2010 for me. i wont be as much of a fuck up. i wont be tripping over myself. i refuse to make the same mistakes. REFUSE. i cannot be whatever the fucking fuck idiot person i’ve been in 2010. i’ve become accustomed to having regrets over the past year and that sucks so so bad. making bad decisions. clouded fucking judgement. who is this person ive...
so pissed at myself... i want to punch myself in...
no joke, but i wont because the person i probably make want to off themself makes me want to live… breathe.. ironic. goddamnit.
my windshield wipers are SERIOUSLY not helping...
Don't puke in a mcdonald's bag. they fucking leak.
it's like everything has paused. the only constant...
i’m sticking to using the app on my phone for tumblr. i dont want to browse the site. i dont want to know how happy or sad anyone else is. i probably wont use my computer for days. i dont want to get wrapped up in the lives of other people. i just want to sleep. i need a fucking time machine.
i am a fucking creep.
what the fuck kinda person would do that? why did i do that? ‘it’ll be fine, just relax’ i said that, but it definitely was not fine. i didnt have bad intentions but it was so stupid to think doing THAT of all things would help anything. im a fucking idiot.
I swea whole trend of never being happy is...
what the fuck is my problem? why the fuck do I have the judgement of a complete idiot. How the fuck do I keep hurting the one person that means more to me than anything else? I’m losing my mind.
note to self: getting drunk and acting like a...
what happened last night was just… stupid and uncalled for completely. what the fuck?
EDIT: I had misdirected frustration/other emotions. No excuse, I fucked up. No I didn’t mean for what happen to happen, but it did. Sometimes I don’t know my own strength. All I can do now is breathe and wait… and fucking choke on anxiety.
if i could just go into my brain and rip out whatever is making me feel like this i would. it’s like i just want to shut down. I’ve definitely been different this week and a few people have noticed. they assume i’m not enthusiastic to see them, or that i’m upset or mad. i’m just feeling much calmer than i have before… i just said feeling, i meant acting. i feel...
Holy Shit.
I’m afraid. very very afraid.
this reminds me of what happened 2 years ago… it’s a similar situation… except i’m not being cut out of anything.. or used.. or any of that stupid “fake friend” stuff… but shit just got super fucking complicated. Nevermind me though… not now.
I’m scared for what might happen to her… i cannot imagine...
it’s christmas. I hope today goes well.
my birthday was 2 days ago aaaaand it was the best birthday i’ve had since 6th grade.
I still feel goofy inside… like sad… so i guess not “goofy” but it’s okay though.
I need to figure out how to chill out. that would just fix SO many things… and even prevent me from losing the deep rooted and most important friendship I have going for me right now. I’ve never felt so loved. I believed it more than anything when I was sitting on that bed listening to her tell me it’s okay… and that she’s not going anywhere.. and
“you’re...
MEGA FAIL... FUUUUUCKING SHIT GODDAMNIT :/
I’m at a point where I need to start over. I think right now is a good time. I’m trying. I’m still plagued by so many things. I wonder how long this will last?
I’m also curious to see what a certain someone wrote about me… must not be too great since since I’m not allowed to read it right now. damn. damper for sure.
I’m at a point where I need to start over. I think right now is a good time. I’m trying. I’m still plagued by so many things. I wonder how long this will last?
I’m also curious to see what a certain someone wrote about me… must not be too great since since I’m not allowed to read it right now. damn. damper for sure.
Anonymous asked: i think you're beautiful.
i don’t get the “i love you” thing. i only say it to certain people. Many times to the same people not many times to random people. So what the fuck does it mean when someone i say “i love you” to throws it out to people they dont actually love just because it’s been said to them, yet if i say it sometimes the words are returned but other times nothing but an...
Yesterday was fine.. awesome actually. Today has...
Anonymous asked: whats yo probrem g to the i to the r to the l -izzzzillee?
whitechapel appreciation post
kingnaners:
Anonymous asked: i think you're beautiful.
I made a joke tonight.. from a tweet I wrote like forever ago regarding evolution. I definitely should’ve thought before I spoke, or at least worded so it didn’t sound directed at my friend. It wasn’t. It wasn’t at all, but it sounded like it was. I hurt her feelings. We’re good friends so maybe she for sure knows I didn’t mean it that way. Maybe she’s...
The definition of crazy is doing the same thing...